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At this point in life I’ve been faced with alot of shit that I’m trying to conquer it. In 4 months I’m losing a dear friend to me Elmo Kennedy O’connor which day by day is hitting me and i know its gonna be one of the hardest things ever to do. I feel like i need a big change in life at this point, Im stuck home alot wich isnt always bad but i miss being at my friend chucks house i wish i could have made better choices but im thankful i did so i can avoid making the same mistake. Im starting football soon which i love but i hate being away from people but i know in the end it’ll be worth it’Ive kinda had feelings for this girl but i know she dosent see me like that which sucks so im gonna accept that face but i guess , for that past month ive been wanting a girlfriend deeply but at the same time i don’t want just a girlfriend or just someone to get me happy i want someone whos special and cares about me but i guess that’s gonna take sometime but im fortunate enough to have my bestfriends and my loving family to keep me happy and care about me which makes my life easier. I dont wanna say im depressed i guess im just adapting to my life one step at a time. I just feel like everyday i do the same thing like my bodys on repeat and id give anything for a drastic change but ive come to realize if i want a new out come i need to change that and not wait for it. I want to say that im glad ive made it this far in my life with the family and friends i have to help me that way im very thankful for my parents who steer me in the right direction 100% of the time.<3 ECD till the die